Lefty Dreams

Astroland Park at sunrise

I dreamt of being back in New York last night. I was walking around Manhattan and feeling the way I used to when I was in my 20s. When I first left NYC, I dreamt about it every night. Eventually the dreams stopped happening every night, but it's always memorable when I dream about NYC now. It's like that heart filling feeling of being home, where everything is familiar and I know my way around. I can't even recall having any memorable dreams of Louisville. This place is still a foreign land and I doubt that I'll ever truly love it here. In my waking dreams, I always wish I could go back to Brooklyn and be amongst the real people, instead of the fakers who pass for humans here.
I had two spots of happy news today. I got an email from my friend Annie, who just got reconstructive surgery after a double mastectomy. She is healing and I'm so glad that it seems like the worst is behind her now. They got all the cancer and hopefully this will be it for surgeries. I wish I could go visit her in Maui, but I just can't afford it financially, nor do I think I could leave my cat in someone's care... I really hope to see her again sometime soon. In my heart, I wish I could go visit all of my friends around the country.
The other cool thing that happened is I was Tweeted by one of my favorite lefties, actor Luis Guzman. He was asking for people to Tweet their hometown pride and I Tweeted Brooklyn Pride. He said of course Brooklyn Pride. I love being able to follow my favorite lefties. I just found out that Jason Sudeikis is lefty and I wish he was on Twitter.
I suppose all I can do for now is dream of Brooklyn and dream of a better life. I know things are bad for a lot of people now and I have it better than most. I hope with all my heart that I get to go back to NYC someday soon. Besides craving the bagels and pizza and diner food, I miss the craziness of it all--the crowds, the subway, the noise. I still miss you and love you, NYC. You'll always be in my heart.